MACKENZIE

Nearly a decade ago, it was my privilege to meet and develop a relationship with Jakob Mackenzie. He was a real person, although not known by that name. A heart patient for a number of years, he died quite suddenly in July 2009  at the age of 54 from heart damage sustained through decades of working 120-hour weeks. The loss has been great for those whose lives he touched and we all have been diminished by his passing.

In working through the grief process, I began to write what I was thinking and feeling. Those poems and letters have developed into the Requiem Suite, Out of the Ashes and Days Remembered.

In the nearly two years since Zee’s death, I and my family have sustained the loss of six family members and over 125 long-term family friends, some relationships dating back before the Great Depression. The impact has been staggering and it is impossible to process that much grief. There simply is not enough time. The only path to wholeness seemed to be in writing, so I have continued to chronicle the experiences I have encountered along this journey.

As I have explored the various stages and nuances of the grieving process, I have shared my work with family, friends and professional associates who have encouraged me to publish what I have written. It is raw emotion at its ugliest, but, I hope, faithful to the human condition. In sharing what I have experienced, it is my heartfelt wish that others might find a kindred spirit and draw strength and hope for their own struggles with grief.

Two other stories are being developed to complete the story of Jakob Mackenzie as I know it.

Letters to Zee are excerpts from the journal I wrote to him and his children during our courtship.

Jakob Mackenzie is the story that I was told of who Jakob Mackenzie was and how he came to be the man I met and fell in love with. While it is based on true events, it has been fictionalised in order to protect the privacy of his family and his clients.

Any attempt to tell the story of someone’s life is fraught with dangers. The telling is inevitably skewed through the relationship one has with the subject. My hope is that I might share with others the exceptional experience I had and honour the memory of the man who trusted me with his love.

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1 | JAKOB MACKENZIE

THE PRICE OF LOVE

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2 | LETTERS TO ZEE

2002/11/07 | LETTERS TO ZEE: DEDICATION

2002/11/01 | TO LOVE WELL

2002/11/02 | NO DEFENSES

2002/11/03 | THE GIFT

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3 | REQUIEM SUITE

REQUIEM SUITE | IMPACT

I. REQUIEM

II. IMMOLATION

III. THE CENOTAPH

IV. THE SILENCE

V. ASHES IN THE WIND

VI. TWILIGHT

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4 | OUT OF THE ASHES

VII. COMFORT

VIII. MAY IT BE

IX. NO DIFFERENCE

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5 | DAYS REMEMBERED

X. TO DAYS REMEMBERED

XI. ANNO SEPTIMO

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— J. E. Clark / 9 February 2011

— LAST UPDATE: 6 September 2016

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