Tag Archives: life experiences

THE PRICE OF LOVE

Grief never ends, but it changes. It is a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith, it is the price of love. – Anonymous He was the sun, the … Continue reading

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REMEMBERING . . .

Remembering 38 years ago at this very moment when my life hung in the balance and G-d gave me everything I needed in order to make the right decisions to save my life. Sometimes seemingly little things can be huge. … Continue reading

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“THE VERY TERROR OF THE TEMPEST”

Every year on this day I am drawn back to 3 March 1993. At the time, I was an executive secretary for a wholesale and retail distributor of health and beauty aids during the week and the assistant to the … Continue reading

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X. TO DAYS REMEMBERED

It has always been here. Like ballast dragged astern, The dread this day portends Has floated on the streams of life. Its aging memories boom like thunder, More loud and violent Than storm-tossed midnight skies Filled with humid, fetid air … Continue reading

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IX. NO DIFFERENCE

My Dearest Most Beloved Zee, It is a wonderful day today. The sun is shining. It is 65 degrees. A day of breath-taking beauty, really. And I am confused. For all the darkness and shadows, the raw brokenness of the … Continue reading

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TRANSITIONS

Our friend George Williams died yesterday. He had led a long life, was a man of great faith, and was a much beloved leader in our community. He leaves behind a loving wife, three children, their spouses and many grandchildren. … Continue reading

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2002/11/07 | LETTERS TO ZEE: DEDICATION

For Zee, who has made it possible. And for Susanna, Michelle, Andrew and Anna, who are precious, much beloved children, well-deserving of a father and grandfather who is loved and admired, adored and respected, greatly valued as the truly special … Continue reading

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VIII. MAY IT BE

My Dearest, Most Beloved Zee, Such poignant moments we shared together. Hard to describe, special moments of intimacy. We righted wrongs, built businesses, loved children, shared laughter, healed old wounds, touched each other’s hearts, drank deeply of pleasure. The joy, … Continue reading

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2002/11/03 | THE GIFT

From the beginning, I have known you were different, that this time wasn’t anything like the other ones. I have felt a freedom with you, a security I have never known before. There are no rules, no rôles, no restrictions … Continue reading

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VII. COMFORT

My Dearest, Most Beloved Zee, You told me once that when I don’t hear from you to take comfort in knowing that you are alive. Where is my comfort now? Is it in knowing that you lived and we were … Continue reading

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2002/11/02 | NO DEFENSES

To stand naked before you in every way, to place my life before you with all its flaws, to put all that I am in your hands without reservation, trusting solely in the kindness of your heart, all takes my … Continue reading

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JAMILA: JOURNEY TO AWARENESS

I was 20 years old when I moved to California with my husband. In the aftermath of the 1973 Mississippi River flood, we had left our hometown of Hannibal, Missouri and all we had ever known. A rural community, Hannibal … Continue reading

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FINDING BEDROCK IN THE STORM

In a world where everything seems to be in a constant process of change — and not for the better — I long for something solid, something I can depend on day after day, year after year.  I don’t need … Continue reading

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VI. TWILIGHT

How awkward, this living, This moving forward in time Without you by my side. The sun rises, then sets, Each day rolls into the next, Endlessly, relentlessly, At times excruciatingly slowly, And I feel nothing but the soft, Warm breeze … Continue reading

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V. ASHES IN THE WIND

How long has it been since I held you, Or put my head upon your shoulder With a sigh of contentment on my lips? How long has it been since you held my hand And pulled me close in a … Continue reading

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IV. THE SILENCE

The mantle of the darkness falls over the landscape As descending silence blocks all I might hear, My pounding heart echoes in the gathering stillness Straining toward footsteps that never draw near. Each grief-stricken moment grinds painfully onward Quenching the … Continue reading

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III. THE CENOTAPH

Oh, how I love Thee! How my heart swells with joy for Thee! From thy first glance unto thy last Such happiness has Filled my heart, my life That I can scarce contain its depth. You have been the morning … Continue reading

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II. IMMOLATION

It never leaves, This hovering in the fire Between two worlds. Drugged by the pain, I struggle between Consciousness And darkness. I call out your name Again and again Until my throat is raw And I lay prostrate, spent, Mocked … Continue reading

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I. REQUIEM

How my heart aches for you! How dull and gray These sunlit skies become Because you’ve left this life behind And passed beyond our reach, . . . Our sight, . . . our call. How small and bleak our … Continue reading

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REQUIEM SUITE | IMPACT

It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness. – Eleanor Roosevelt LIGHTING THE CANDLE There are days where the sun shines brightly and all is right with the world. In the midst of such revelry, it can … Continue reading

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IN THE BEGINNING . . .

New beginnings It’s universal, isn’t it, this need to be known? So we find an arena in which we can excel, or at least be noticed, and set off to make a name for ourselves. It can be in anything, … Continue reading

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